Words of the Tao

Last night I was texting with a friend and listening to her issues with love & life which really gets the ol' ticker turning.  She told me how she felt numb with her current situation. That she is just going through the motions of life... and I completely understood her.  She has had a pretty rough go at life, but she is still such a beautiful person.  Her and I haven't been the greatest of friends over the last chunk of years, but it seems like the older we get the more we need each other's guidance.  We are always discussing love (amongst many other topics), but we have very different outlooks on it. She is a relationship girl, while I am the girl who is always alone.  She loves to be in love, while I am deathly afraid of it.  She makes me think of what I really want out of life.  Do I really want to be alone forever.  Do I really want to be what my friends call me, "indefinitely single?"  Do I even truly know what it is that I do want out of life?

When I started writing this blog, I was thinking about all kinds of "woe is me" things.  How my life is stressful right now. How I feel a lot like I am no longer treading water, but I have had this put into perspective today by two sick friends. One, at work, is on the losing side of the battle with cancer.  The other, in my family, is my aunt who has a terrible auto-immune disease right now.  Without treatment it will shut down her lungs and kidneys.   So I started thinking about my loneliness, my hatred for my job, my past relationships, my aching knee, and all of it started to feel severely insignificant. 

"Embrace simplicity. Put others first. Desire little." Tao Te Ching by Lao Tzu