I got to babysit my beautiful Goddaughter Avery all day today. It was fun snuggling with a sleepy little growing life all day. I ran to the dentist, picked up my "night guard" and then to the Secretary of State to get my new driver's license. At least I don't have to get another one for a decade...
Here is where I am now: I missed last week's episode of Parenthood so I had two episodes to watch tonight. I'm pretty sure I cried for the full two hours. Pathetically enough it wasn't like I just was leaking tears out of the corner of my eyes, I am talking full on weepy sobs. I mean, I laughed a bit, I smiled, I even spoke out loud at Peter Krauser's "KFed meets RunDMC" outfit, but when it came down to it I wept like I had just lost my best friend.
It seems like a few times a year something happens that opens my eyes to the fact that I am missing out what I want out of life. I'm not exactly sure what to do about this predicament or about the fact that it slaps me right in the face a few times a year, but I know that something is definitely out of place. I think I am going to have to do some soul searching and find out exactly what it is I need vs. what I want. I have my Alanna, which is the single most important thing, however, I know I was meant for more and I don't even have a clue where to start.
We can fool ourselves and go through life getting by but when something like a TV show or movie strikes close to what we don't let ourselves think about the emotions pour out. I totally have experienced this.
ReplyDeleteIt sucks doesnt it? I mean, way to bring you back to earth and humble you to death.
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