Think with my heart

Today for the second time this week my mother invited me over to dinner.  Upon eating dinner my father started an argument with me that got me to get up, get my coat, and leave.  He does this for pleasure, I'm convinced.  Almost as if he gets off on putting others down or making other people feel inferior to him.  I've always known that his opinions are the only opinions in the world that matter.  That he is supremely right while we are all miserably wrong.  Its obnoxious to feel like this.

So, of course, I said to my mom "Don't invite me over anymore, cuz I wont come."  and I left.  She texted me with a "You are too sensitive."  You know... I would rather be too sensitive than anywhere close to the way he is.  He loves to fight, he loves to argue, and he hurts people's feelings all the time.  My mother, my daughter, my brother.   He is unfeeling and unkind.  It even hurts me to admit that my father is this big of a prick. 

I try to explain to my daughter that it is better to have NO father -like she does- than to have a father that verbally hurts you every time you are in his presence.  Maybe I need to move away from him so he can't hurt me any more.  If this was a boyfriend treating me like this I would have kicked his ass to the curb long ago, but since it is my dad I allow it?  Unacceptable.