I am an emotional rollercoaster. Today my daughter stunned me off my feet today with her "too adult" vocalizations. Today our neighbor dropped her daughter off before school so I could get her on the bus while she had an appointment to be at.
While the girls were eating breakfast I asked Makaela "What does your dad do for a living?"
Alanna responded with a "My dad?"
I said "No, Makaela's dad."
Alanna said "Mine breaks hearts."
My bottom lip quiverred, my eyes filled with tears, and my heart cracked more than it already has been.
All I could even muster to say was "Ohhhh Lonnie." She tells me all the time that she wishes she had her father in her life and I try to tell her that sometimes having a dad isn't as fun as you'd think. I try to tell her about the ugly side to the coin but she doesn't believe it exists.
Today has literally turned into a daddy day. Everything I have heard, watched, & lived has had to do with people with big fat daddy issues and those issues are completely beyond me. I have been having a Dawson's Creek marathon today and Andie McPhee was like "I don't care if he abandoned our family, hes our dad. He loves us." And the whole time I was thinking "Really? Can ya get the eff over it? Who cares if he is your dad."
While watching the episode my best friend calls to tell me she is staying with her parents for a week because her boyfriend's father who is a drunk, drug addict, and was non-existent in his life for 20+ years. And yet he says "He needs a place to stay. He is my dad." Nevermind the fact that his being there makes Jenn uncomfortable and she fears for the safety of her newborn daughter. Who cares if he needs a place to stay? You just chose your loser father over your baby and girlfriend. Classy.
Who are these people and where do they come from? Fathers are not all they are cracked up to be. I have one and have dislike him 97% of the time. And let me just say that 3% was not the best of times. It wasn't until I was 20 that I even started liking him at all. Once I had my daughter he turned into a different man. I know that maybe I can't speak of why people without their fathers in their lives have daddy issues because I have had mine in my life, but having it has been way more overrated than anything else so I guess I just dont understand.
